In yesterday’s post, “Mindset”, I shared that I expected today, which marks the 11th anniversary of my mother’s death, to be terrible. Never good to wake up expecting to have a terrible day. Today was not as I expected.
I feel sad, I miss her so much. I am sure that I will cry later when I am alone, but my day went okay. I actually had a good day today. This marks my first ever not, bad March 2nd, since 2009 when my mother passed away.
What made today a good day? Nothing extraordinary. I did not get a raise or promotion. Prince Charming did not call. My kid did not get his acceptance letter to MIT. Today, the little things mattered, and they added up.
I woke up slowly. I usually jump out of bed when the alarm goes off. This morning, I hit the snooze button, and I took a moment to think about her. I thought about the time that she took my sister and I with her on a work trip to Dallas. She rarely ever traveled. We were bored out of our minds at the hotel, so she let us go to Six Flags by ourselves. We had so much fun! My sister won a giant stuffed bear, and we named the bear, “Lucky”.
The alarm went off again, and I hit snooze. This time I thought about our conversations we had at night when she was sick. She lived with us, and I would sit in her room with her at night, and we would talk. We talked about so many things. Most of all we talked about what she wanted for her children. Her simple ask, “I pray for my children to be happy.”
The alarm went off again, and I hit snooze. This time I prayed. I prayed for my children, my friends and my coworkers. For me, I prayed for a happy heart.
I missed my run this morning, doh! However, I also found positives in every aspect of the day. I wore my new favorite dress, and I embraced the fact that I feel good about the way that I look. I had a new coworker start on my project, and I embraced that he is as excited about the opportunity that we have as I am. Our kick off to parallel had major technology issues this morning. I embraced how quickly and calmly we all came together to resolve the issues. No stress, just calm, focused delivery. I missed lunch, and then treated myself to a small steak, large serving of vegetables and single glass of wine. I might even go for a run this evening.
As soon as I left work, I called Brainy Bird to check in. He had started the day under the weather, which is way out of the ordinary for him, and I wanted him to see a doctor until he went back to school. We need to be taking the threat of the Coronavirus seriously. He could not get an appointment until later afternoon, so he missed school. He is NOT infected with the Coronavirus, just Houston allergies. I already had the update from the doctor, and I had talked to Brainy Bird through out the day. I was actually calling to make sure Brainy Bird appreciates that the fence is down, and Potatoe could get out. I am out of town for work, so Brainy Bird is in charge of my sweet Potatoe.
A few days ago, a high wind blew the fence completely down the far side of the yard. If one just looks out the backdoor, they may not realize that the far other side of the fence is down, and that Potatoe can get out, so I was calling to let Brainy Bird know. Brainy Bird clearly comprehended all of this. When I called, Brainy Bird and Carrot were in the process of rebuilding the fence.
It is the little things in life. My teenage son is not only responsible, but showed great initiative in getting out there to fix the fence. I love that he knows how to fix and fence. Most endearing, he has a best friend there to help him. Mom would have loved to meet the kids that Brainy Bird hangs with.
I miss Mom. I am never going to stop missing her. I think she is smiling down from Heaven today because her daughters and her grandsons are happy. I have a happy heart.