The AM
I feel as if today is the first day of the new chapter. I usually update my blog just before I go to bed each night and on weekends. I think this may be my first ever blog post at the start of a day. I need today to go well for me. I am becoming weary. I just don’t have any energy.
It is 4 in the morning, and I have been up since 2 AM working.
It is a long story, but the short of it is that we have a 10 AM meeting every Monday morning. In this meeting vice presidents are known for attacking consultants and people at my level when things are perceived to not be going well on the project. In actuality, my work stream is going extremely well on the project. The only challenge that we have is around prioritization. According to the org chart, I am not the manager of my work stream, but nonetheless, I suspect that I will be the target. I disagree with the prioritization of the work, and I spent my weekend hammering out the tasks that are of greatest priority rather than the tasks that will provide vice presidents with the perception that things are going well.
I am not sure that I can endure an attack this morning. I spent my entire Saturday working. I knocked off at least a week’s worth of work from a normal developer. I cancelled plans that I had on Saturday evening with the Giant Puppy. Actually, I cancelled things with him permanently. Perhaps, sometime with nothing else is going on, the Giant Puppy will get his own blog post entitled, How To Quickly Chase a Girl Away With Constant Text Messaging. I was sick on Saturday night, and I did not sleep well. I woke up early on Sunday, but I had no energy. I got to work early, and I simply could not concentrate. I stepped out for lunch to clear my head, and I got back to the office to find that being there was depressing. Literally depressing. I was on the verge of tears, and I was becoming extremely anxious with thoughts that I am working my life away without purpose.
I left the office and wound up picking Brainy Bird up from his dad’s house. We went shopping for the new computer that he more than earned with his exceptional performance as a fourth grader, and we spent the evening together on our new computers that we had each gotten. I still had plenty of time last night to get the “important” task done for Monday, except I ran into issues, and I have had to restart the whole process over from scratch this morning, and now it is Monday morning and the processes are still running. In other words, the important task is not complete, and I can not do much except sit here and watch the process run. There is no impact to the project timeline or to the business with this task unfinished. It is simply that a vice president wants it done, and it is not done.
My first hope for today is that when I walk into the office this morning, I am feeling my usual, energetic, happy to be there self as opposed to the way that I felt yesterday. My second hope for today is that things do not go awry in the 10 AM meeting this morning. I want to be happy, I do not want to waste my life stressing out and being unhappy about things that do not add value to a bigger picture any where. My third hope is that by some miracle, the processes, which take a day to run some how finish early this morning. I am not sure that any of my hopes are realistic for today.
The PM
As I walked into the office this morning, I realized just how nervous I was about today’s workday. I arrived to the office around 6:30 AM, and I found that my process was complete! This meant that I was fully prepared for my day. Taz reviewed my documentation on the status of my work stream that I had prepared for him, and he said that it was exactly what he was looking for. My day got off the a very good start, and it continued on in a positive direction the rest of the day. Even traffic wasn’t too bad today!
The boys and I just got home. I am watching a parallel test run on my laptop for work, and Brainy Bird has spent the last 20 minutes getting the Wii U unconnected to the television that went out and connected to the television that I just bought. I just heard a cheer of excitement from both the boys that tells me that everything is up and running.
We have ordered out for pizza, and we will be sitting together at the dinner table for pizza and Sorry! Sliders before too much longer. I do not usually allow video games on school nights, but Brainy Bird is finished with his home work, and we have been without a television to play Wii U on for over a month, so I am not worried about video game overload.
I love Mondays….