I am again off to bed super early. I cannot lift my left arm above my head. My entire body hurts with the arm being the worst of the pain. My lymph nodes are swollen to the point that it hurts to rest my arms down at my sides. Even my toes hurt.
Most of my symptoms are flu like – body aches, fever, swollen lymph nodes, a rash on my back, and nausea. The one out of the norm symptom is a sort of itching underneath my skin. It actually feels like small bugs or something are moving underneath my skin, trying to borough out. I have muscle twitching through out my body, and I think that the muscle twitching is the root cause of this weird sensation.
I absolutely need to start feeling better. I have so much to do this week at work, and I did not get enough done today to meet all of the week’s deadlines. I went nearly a year without being sick, and here I am sicker than I have been in years. I am doubting my decision to get vaccinated, while I had a positive test for natural anti-bodies. If I have the natural antibodies, I should be protected from the virus, and if I had not gotten the vaccine, I would not be stuck in bed, completely miserable right now.
What I am feeling right now is much worse than how I felt when I had Covid. It is not to say that I am anti-vaccine, to the contrary, I am extremely pro-vaccine. I just think that there is more to the equation, and that people should not be running out to get vaccinated without full consideration for past infections and natural immunity. I have to admit, I was curious what the vaccine would do to my natural anti-bodies. Now, I am feel like my curiosity got the best of me.
To put into perspective just how bad I feel right now, I actually wrote out a brief will this afternoon. With my fever finally coming down, I no longer think that I will end up in the ER tonight, but I am still miserable. To add to the discomfort, we did not have water most of the day, so I was not able wash my bedding, which I sweated in most of the night last night. The bedding now feels itchy, further irritating the rash on my back, and furthering the bizarre crawly feeling through out my body.
If I had a do over today, I would go back to bed as I contemplated doing. I think the few hours that I was awake and drinking coffee increased my symptoms. The coffee made me feel better for a brief moment, but then my fever and aches came back with a vengeance.
This is one of those times as a parent that I am grateful to have a self-sufficient child. Little Chirp cooked the leftover London Broil with scrambled eggs for lunch today, and then he gladly had the rest for dinner tonight. He took care of Potatoe and Trooper. As high maintenance as Trooper is, I must say that I really appreciated Little Chirp’s help.
Little Chirp spent a good portion of his day finishing the decorating in his study, which turned out amazing. He also got a good amount of time in at his basketball court once the rain ceased to a drizzle. The one time that I did check on Little Chirp, I found he had made a sketch of a cat. For a kid that has never had an art lesson, his sketch is pretty good. The cat is so well drawn that it feels like it has a personality.
I am now headed to bed in hopes of actually being able to sleep tonight. I did at some point find a comfortable position to sleep in last night. Honestly, now that I am again trying to find a comfortable way to lay, I am at a loss for what that comfortable position was last night.
On the upside, once I am better, I can go back to Canada. I definitely want to get back to Canada. It is important for my livelihood.