I am at Black Walnut enjoying my weekend breakfast. I feel happy that my longtime friend, and I have mended our friendship. He is on his way here to enjoy a cup of coffee.
While I wait for him, last night is slowly coming back to me. I had a drink or three, and I wanted to convince a new friend that being single is fun. I do love being single. In our pursuit of having fun as single people, we went into a restaurant / bar. A fatter version of a man that I had forgotten about sat at the bar with his friend. I wrote about him years ago – Not My Cup of Tea – Run with me (runwithme35.com). In my head, he is nicknamed Litte Boy B.
I had forgotten how emotionally stunted the individual is. Of all the people that we could run into trying to have fun being single, it had to be him. Looking back on the “Not My Cup of Tea” post, I wonder if he figured out Gina has a criminal record. Winner, winner chicken dinner.
Fast forward two years, and a few days, and I remember why I decided to take a hiatus from dating. I was on a first date about two weeks ago, and my date asked why I did not date for so long. I could not remember why. I tend to shut negative experiences out of my mind. When I first saw Little Boy B last night; I tried to remember what went so awry, and I could not recall. Before long, Little Boy B helped me remember. Imagine being so provided for in life that you make up problems. Next time that I see him, I need to thank him for the quick refresher on exceptionally insecure people.
I stopped dating two years ago because I wanted to focus on things that mattered to me. I stopped dating because I realized that I no longer held to my high standards. I needed a reset. I am ready to begin dating again, but with no plans of jumping right back in.
I plan to take a passive approach. Over the past two years, when someone asked me out, or tried to flirt with me, I shut them down immediately. I plan to stop doing that. I am going to become receptive, but not proactive to dating. We shall see how that goes. All that I need is one confident man…