How am I doing? Is a question that I am asked a lot. When I am relaxed and well rested, I get that this is the most generic question ever, especially in the south.
“How are you doing?” Is our Southern version of, “hi!”.
Yet when I am asked how I am doing by someone that I have not seen in a long time, or someone that knows me well, I cannot help but to feel that it is a loaded question asked by people that know I am divorced, and that my parents are both dead and that well…there are other family messes too. Messes that I have zero control over. You know that you are on your own in life when your close friends stage an intervention to get you to cut the toxic family members out of your life. Or are you on your own? Perhaps, I just did not realize who I could count on until recently.
So, how am I doing?
Deep breath….
I wake up everyday, and I cannot believe that my life is my life. I wake up content, thankful and happy. My children are amazing. I love my profession. I have friends that are more than family to me. I have my health, and I feel good about who I am.
I no longer fear being alone. I know that there are people in my life that truly care for me. I am not sure that I deserve them, but they are with me, and I am forever thankful for them.
I am beyond grateful for my life.
In short….How am I doing? I am loving and appreciating every minute of life.