There is a great deal to be said for looking forward in life rather than looking backwards. Of course, we can learn from the past, but we can not change it. Living in the past is a mental prison. But what about the fallacy of always looking ahead in life and not appreciating today?
I am constantly thinking about my career goals, and I worry about my future on every front. I am forward thinking to the point that I have stopped being happy in the present. I have stopped enjoying the little things that make life worth living, and I am emotionally drained thinking about what I do not have in life. What is missing in my life? A special someone to share my life with, and making it to the next level in my career.
I stress constantly over things that I cannot change today. How will I pay for Brainy Bird’s college? Are my boys on the right path in life? Am I going to get to see them to adulthood and start families of their own? Of course, these are things to think about, but they are not things to be consumed by day in and day out.
I need to get back to living in the present instead of day dreaming or worrying about what is ahead in my life’s journey. I feel emotionally disconnected from those around me because I am so busy worrying about tomorrow. I have stopped living my life.
I am going to wake up tomorrow, and I am going to get down on my knees and pray. I am going to say a long prayer of thanks for the amazing life that I have been blessed with, and I am going to pray for my friends who have been there through all of my trials and triumphs. Then, I am going to run six miles, shower, and eat something out of the ordinary for breakfast. I am going to eat my breakfast without working on my laptop or Ipad. I am going to take the time to get to know the person bringing me my breakfast, and I am going to take a look around me. In other words, I am going to be the complete opposite of the self-absorbed person that I have been since the holidays began.
Then I am going to spend my day focused on the work I love. I am going to work like a dog for 10 hours, but then I am going to unplug from work and find something interesting to see in Nashville. I am going to text the boys when they get home to ask how their days went, and I am going to do a little online shopping for Brainy Bird’s first car. I am going to text my little sister to see how Baby Bird is doing (aka my new nephew). That’s right! We have a new baby in the family. It has been many years since we had a Baby Bird. I am going to send silly memes to my friends, and put something amusing on my Facebook status.
I am deeply grateful for my friends that have seen me through yet another holiday downturn; they deserve way better from me as their friend.
Living in the now is going to start happening right now….
Hopefully, the plane doesn’t crash…not sure I should joke about that….if you are reading this, we landed safely in the home of country music. 💕